Do you remember what it was like as a kid spinning round and round on the merry go round.....holding on with all your might as you spun faster and faster, closing your eyes and getting lost, feeling as if you could just fly off into the sky? I've always loved that feeling, but its a bitter sweet feeling for me because I know I can never really fly away and escape this life. For as long as I can remember I've always had dreams of being able to fly, wishes of being a butterfly...beautiful and graceful, free to roam the sky as I please. I find myself wishing more than ever that I could just fly away....take off even just for a short while and get lost in the clouds....watch the sun setting over the ocean.....see the glow of the moon against the mountain tops. Just one day is all I ask.....
I feel myself spinning....faster and faster each day....slowly losing my grip. I don't know how much longer I can hold on....how much longer I want to hold on. I feel like I'm losing control, I want this feeling to stop....I want to scream, runaway, anything to make it stop. But it's no use...there's nothing I can do...
I wanna give up.....I feel like I've been fighting to hold on for so long now.
I wanna let go....
Maybe if I just let go it'll all go away...
I'm sorry
